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Why I fear the lunch room - A Journey of Self-Change --- part 1

  I’ve been living this point for a while, of feeling anxious and nervous every time I step into the lunch room at work and/or when I find myself in the presence of males specifically.   I’d been ‘working on’ it for a long time, never seemingly getting to a resolution within myself and it wasn’t until I was discussing it with a co-worker who had similar experiences of anxiety related to stepping into the lunch room and being around groups of people that I finally decided I’m going to get to the bottom of this and assist and support myself to change myself and transcend this issue once and for all; to prove to myself that this point does not define me.   I did some self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements in writing about it as a preliminary first step toward change. This assisted me with some initial realizations, understandings and a solid starting point for how to change ‘who I am’ in relation to ‘going into the lunch room’ and specifically this experie...

Worry about the future vs manifesting potential in the MOMENT

  i've been doing a lot of worrying about the future lately. there's been a lot of debating over decisions and choices which i fear will impact and decide 'the rest of my life'.  i came to realize that any hopes, opportunities, potentials and possibilities i was projecting and perceiving in my thoughts about 'the future' are actually here in the moment. if i want to live these words: potential, opportunity, possibility, hope, then i must let go of my thoughts and worries about the future and work with what i have here to make choices and decisions that are best for all those that occupy my world and reality in this moment of breath. the opportunities, potentials and possibilities i have been projecting in some idea and thought about the future are not and cannot be real because all that's real exists in this moment where i can work with what i have and do things that consider all that is here to create outcomes that are best for all.  all i have is the mo...